New job, new life, new beginning

I have a funny job, a job where i meets all sorts of people. funny things happened every now and then. sometimes even get scolded for nth.

my job…is a tiring job, at this rate i’m going. i’ll soon be a walking skeleton. lunch/dinner, toilet and smoke break all in one, they give me 20mins. i eat shit also no time. in-between every journey minimum i have 4 – 6mins  of toilet and smoke break. did i mention i manage to complete the process of shitting in 4mins? LOL! that point of time, i salute myself siol. 4mins to shit is’nt an easy task to do man.

now about my life… current status – no life… everyday after knocking of from work i’m too tired and HUNGRY to even go anywhere. seriously, driving is neither easy nor relax. it’s freaking tiring, esp ur mind. try focusing on the road for 9 – 12 hours everyday and u’ll understand. tiring tiring tiring… haven touched my car for quite some time. haven been back to my home for quite long… starting to have home sick… i miss my home, my family….. =(

things between me n my wifey have been alot better. hopefully it’ll last. =)

my son! my son is getting more n more cute every single day. having alot of fun with him these few days. he’s papa boy! nv fail to stick with me. haha.

miss those weekends spent at sentosa with friends. miss those outing we frequently had. each and everyone of us seems to be busy with our own life and job. hmmm. gonna plan one soon!

Respect those taxi and bus drivers as their job are not as easy as it looked. its freaking tiring!

=)

Ok, sometimes when u are there, pple take u for granted or din notice u, but when u are gone, they start to realise… is’nt it too late? – i like this sentence after hearing it from a friend of mine. =)

sometime things don’t turn out the way u want it to be. think about it. everything happend with a reason behind it. after awhile u’ll think and realise that actually u’re even better after it happend. sometimes things turn out the other way does’nt mean it’s really bad. u might be thankful one day that it turn out that way.

stay happy, cheers! =)

Moment of Truth

Talked things out, told her every single thing i did, knew and especially how i felt… Asked her everything that i wanted to know all these while…

After talking and thinking about it, in order to save this whole thing. i feel that no matter what, be it if it’s true or not, i’ll have to belive it. cos it wont do any good to both party if this were to carry on. i’ll just hafta take a deep breath and face it, belive it and stop thinking so much about it…
But i’m still wondering, will there be so much coincidence happening at the same time?

God knows.

Past & Present

It was a sweet start. God knows what kinda ending will it be…

You used to call me everytime when i’m out till late, asking me where am i and what time will i be back. cos u said u missed me. but now… if i din sms or call u, i’ll never receive such msg or calls from u. we used to have lots and lots of things to talk, gossip and joke about. but when we are together now. i can even hear the cricket sound. u used to smile and laugh alot when we are together. but now… i don’t see them anymore. u used to tell me how bad or good is it at work today. but now.. u are not telling me anything. u used to share alot with me. but now… u seems to share everything with your own friends, and i feel that i don’t know anything as a husband. u used to be open and not secretive towards me, but now… u’re so freaking secretive. u used to tell me everything not lying to me. but now… u lied to me even if i asked u for the 2nd time. ur face look convincing… but u don’t know that i knew u was lying.

I can’t remember when was the last time u tell me u love me. cos all these while i’m the one who is telling u how much i love and miss u, and there’s either no response or u’ll ans me unwillingly to make me feel happy. cos i can feel the word ‘ i love u too ‘ coming out from u, is’nt from ur heart, but just from ur mouth.

LIE…

Do u know whats the feeling when u know ur loves one lied to u? Do u know whats the feeling when u know she is lying to u and u asked her for the 2nd time. she still lied with a confident and convincing look thinking that u don’t know it was a lie. but u already knew it was a lie. how does it feels? u know how i feels? i feel like dying…

Trust, Truth, Lie

Trust, is something very important in a r/s. once its gone.. it’ll never be the same again. ever..

But. have u ever thought that, Can u accept the truth? Can u take the blow? How are u going to face it? How are u going to react towards it? So what if u know the truth? Do u know what’s next?

Truth Hurts…

Lie KILLS…

Bad day at work

Slept for 3hrs, work up late. have to take cab to work. started driving. lost concentration. almost went up the curb. kena F by my this instructor for the first time. he’s a super nice guy. was shocked a few mins when i see how fierce he was. almost went the wrong way. hah! bad day bad day.

Wake up hilman hanif! focus! thousands of people life will be in your hands in the future!

ok. im new here. still figuring how to use this thing. HAH!

come to think of it. i seriously screwed up my own life…

being the naughtiest and problematic son in my family, only son who hates studying and always bringing eggs from my report book home, spending money like drinking plain water, not disipline enough to save money. lazy to work. do things never go through my freaking mind. did things that goes againts my religion. having a son and getting married in a situation where i can’t even take care of my bloodyself.  rushing into things. upset my family countless of times…

i  jus screwed up my life.

F*** me.